Life is sad.

I wanna study but everyday proves to be a stumbling block.

Everyday I..

• Spend an hour doing housework
• Spend 3-5 hours eating dinner with my dad's friends, because they chat in Hokkien from 7 pm to 12 PM if you are lucky.
• Your dad poops and pees in the toilet and never flushes with fucked up stench everyday. HAIZ.
• Your mum refuses to open the door for your dog to poop outside every morning, so he poops inside, just because she says if she opens the door, dust will go in and the floor will be dirty. PS. I clean my dogs shit AND mop the floor/sweep/vacuum......
• I cannot upgrade your internet because rm 6 a month is like throwing gold into the ocean
  
• I download files off rapidshare. No wait, I click on the link, wait for the countdown timer ( 30 seconds ), and when I click download, the file doesn't start the download thanks to your internet fucking up. After a few minutes, you get page cannot get displayed. You refresh the page. They tell you you are downloading something and you cannot parallel download with a free account. I did not fucking download a single thing.
• Your mum just spent rm 2000 on slimming programs, and unwilling to upgrade your internet for rm 6 a month !
• Your mum's job everyday is to moan about your dad
• Your parents say you have no social life, when the true reason is because they chucked me in a state where I dont study/work, meaning I dont meet anyone at all. Im suppose to create friends out of thin air. I think they are encouraging imaginary friends.

And this has to be the most epic story I would ever tell you guys.

See, I have a lotta pimples now thanks to stress :D. I wonder where I get the stress from hmm.

The doctor tells me I should reduce my intake of seafood like PRAWN and SQUIDS. Fine, I dont eat much squid.

But the best part is, since my dad always gets free seafood weekly and my mum is so lazy to cook them, my mum often brings us to shop and makes them cook 2 x more than we can eat.

Oh yeah, and prawns are high in cholestrol. So my dad eats 1 or 2 only. My mum eats 1 or 2 only.

And because im the only one not needing to worry about high cholestrol content, I eat the remaining 5-6 prawns EVERY day =D. It doesn't matter to them that my pimples will grow more ! They just say wash wash enough. I already wash 3 times a day, apply some stuff twice a day, and never touch my face anymore, but all my effort goes down the drain with my super daily prawn intake.

FUCK.

And the best part is, in my absoulute sadness and unhappiness and depressiveness in this shithole called Kedah, Im suppose to be able to STUDY and do WELL in exams, when Im truly suffering.

I've reached the stage where I can look back at how fucked up my life is that I can just cry thinking about it. Every time you study, your mum calls you to do some fucked up housework. And you don't get paid. You get paid with shitty streamyx that can't even download rapidshare stuff.

Whenever you play your computer/ TRY TO GET INTERNET TO WORK, your mum begins asking you to do everything ( boil water/ turn on TV for her/clean dog shit and piss/ turn off fan upstairs that I on to dry clothes under her orders, and even go for dinner at 5 in the evening when we mostly eat at 7 in the evening, or even 9 pm sometimes ! )

Anyway Im so flunking my A levels retake so Im just gonna take some random course and be some random loser in the future =). I know I will regret this in the future but why the fuck should I care !!!!!!!!