OMG
My dad smashed the last of chairs at the ground floor of my house.
gratz to me, now I dont need to carry chairs anymore. There are't enough left in the house. I guess we will be shopping for new iron unbreakable chairs soon.
My dad also destroyed the house phone. My net line is of course not affected. NOW THERE IS NO HOUSE CALLS TO DISTURB MY STREAMYX ANYMORE. MUAHAHAHHAHAA.
Plus, I dont care anymore, Imnot fucking cleaning their mess, they will clean themself. Its not like i created the fight or threw the stuff around. its time they learn the fact they are retarded grown up babies.
Few days ago they just complain about me not winning any scholarship and losing them a lot of money unlike my sister. Ah well, I think Im just gonna commit suicide before i go to higher education. So i guess they wouldnt need to spend so much money on me. Me dieing would do so much good to them , there is one less mouth to feed and dunid pay my education. It might fund them more doors, chairs and phones which had been demolished.
Since my end of my life is near, let me enjoy the last moments not doing anything except try watching TV ( my dad hasnt broken this yet ), and play as many computer games as possible. As many people say, we need to experience new things in life. Hopefully my eyesight would be bad enough I would need spectacles before I die. At least i get the experience of being four eyes.
Lastly, I am still hoping my dad and mum would finish themselves off ( commit suiciding or murdering each other ). That would leave me with a huge load of cash, less emotional stress, and I might be able to study well again. But oh well, my mum always tell me bad people live very long. Looks like my parents arent gonna die soon.
Thats all for now :D
Lets hope I din emo enough not to make another post.
ON THE BRIGHTEST SIDE MY PARENTS WERE GONNA BRING ME TO LANGKAWI ISLAND. WHERE I WOULD FOLLOW MY MUM BUY STUFF WHICH IS SO FUCKING LAME. WITH THIS FIGHT, 99 % CHANCES WE WONT GO MUAHAHHAHAHA. THEY COULDNT HAD PICK A BETTER TIME TO FIGHT ( oh wait, they are fighting almost daily XD, just this one was kinda serious enough to cause the trtip to go to shambles =) ). no complaints there XD
Now i gotta act sad about the incident. Not try make myself look to happy because the 2 most miserable objects in my life were eliminated by the buffalo man ( my dad ) or hippopotamus or any fat animal. oh wait, I called him walrus right..
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
My Room
My room has special homemade mosquito netting.
Thanks to someones stinginess , me and my famous dad were forced to construct our very own mosquito netting. It has more holes than my face.
We place the mosquito netting at my window.
This "netting" was used since last year, but Ive never taken any chances, Ive always decided stuffing myself in my room with no air, is better than having air and scratching your skin off due to mosquito bite. I just close the windows, no aircycle, and no mosquitos. I like simple things.
Today, I decided to put my mosquito netting to the test.
Within 4 hours my room was filled with mosquitos and bugs.
Then my mum came with the best plan ever.
My mum sprayed my room with ridsect. Those stuff do work when u close the windows and doors.
My room stinks, so my mum decided to open my windows and use my mosquito netting to let my room "freshen up" from the mosquito spray smell.
It was raining. You know does bugs who go near lights in the rain ?
Well, they invaded my room.
Thanks to the succesive brilliant ideas, my floor is full of dead insects, and my ceiling containing a single light has more than 100 of bugs.
As the icing on the cake, as I am typiung this, the bugs think its funny to fall of the ceiling and and fall over me. Tonight, I sleep with bugs.
Im suprised I still havent considered trying to cut myself, it seems quite rational know.'
Oh yeah, I was supposed to go to KL 2 days ago, but I fell sick. There is something called loneliness, cooped up, and fustration. it really made me sick. oh, and my parents keep asking me to look cheerful and laugh when I meet people.
Im taught to laugh at aliens talking. What if they were talking about the death of a close relative/family member, and me, the super socialite of Kepong/GeorgeTown, laughs his head off.
Apart from bugs, and more loneliness, my lifes been pretty much good.
Ive learnt that my internet curfew was never meant to be 7 pm to 12 pm. I dont even give a dam to even open my internet before my parents go into their room.
I found a new past time. That is reading. harry... my mum is here to check air flight tickets. yay me. gtg
Thanks to someones stinginess , me and my famous dad were forced to construct our very own mosquito netting. It has more holes than my face.
We place the mosquito netting at my window.
This "netting" was used since last year, but Ive never taken any chances, Ive always decided stuffing myself in my room with no air, is better than having air and scratching your skin off due to mosquito bite. I just close the windows, no aircycle, and no mosquitos. I like simple things.
Today, I decided to put my mosquito netting to the test.
Within 4 hours my room was filled with mosquitos and bugs.
Then my mum came with the best plan ever.
My mum sprayed my room with ridsect. Those stuff do work when u close the windows and doors.
My room stinks, so my mum decided to open my windows and use my mosquito netting to let my room "freshen up" from the mosquito spray smell.
It was raining. You know does bugs who go near lights in the rain ?
Well, they invaded my room.
Thanks to the succesive brilliant ideas, my floor is full of dead insects, and my ceiling containing a single light has more than 100 of bugs.
As the icing on the cake, as I am typiung this, the bugs think its funny to fall of the ceiling and and fall over me. Tonight, I sleep with bugs.
Im suprised I still havent considered trying to cut myself, it seems quite rational know.'
Oh yeah, I was supposed to go to KL 2 days ago, but I fell sick. There is something called loneliness, cooped up, and fustration. it really made me sick. oh, and my parents keep asking me to look cheerful and laugh when I meet people.
Im taught to laugh at aliens talking. What if they were talking about the death of a close relative/family member, and me, the super socialite of Kepong/GeorgeTown, laughs his head off.
Apart from bugs, and more loneliness, my lifes been pretty much good.
Ive learnt that my internet curfew was never meant to be 7 pm to 12 pm. I dont even give a dam to even open my internet before my parents go into their room.
I found a new past time. That is reading. harry... my mum is here to check air flight tickets. yay me. gtg
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
HAPPY
Just kidding. The day Im happy will be the day
Day1
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My Dad used the phone from 7 pm to 11.30 pm. I get my internet at 7 pm and ends at 12 midnight. With his frequent calls, I couldnt even open a webpage thanks to DC.
Day 2
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My Dad and my family goes to have dinner with aliens. Till 11 PM. Talking alien.
Day 3
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Thanks to a brilliant Feng Shui Master, he claimed that we could kill the spiders inhabiting the top corners of my house by suffocating them with the smoke of charcoal. This was supposedly supposed to bring my family luck, and more hitss to the porn site my dad owns.
Sadly, I spent 2 hours setting up charcoal fires in the house ( BBQ style ), my eyes were crying out in the smoke, they will never be the same again. We closed all windows and doors and left the fire in the house for 2 hours.
On the brught side, my house didnt burn up. Oh wait, did I mention I would be spending the whole night vacuuming, mopping and sweeping the floor from charcoal soots and debris in the whole house.
And no, the spiders did not die. They just laughed their ass out at me cleaning the WHOLE FUCKING HOUSE thanks to my feng shui master.
My dad paid him rm 2000 to give tips about how he can get good luck in life and earn good money. To me, its also called daylight robbery.
Day 4 ( Yesterday )
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Dinner alsted till 8.30, but then my dad went out without me ! YESH A FULL NIGHT OF PEACEFUL UNINTERRUPTED INTERNET AWAITS ME.
Ooops, I spoke to soon. At 9, my whole housing area had no electricity. Thanks Malaysia. It came back at 11.30 PM. That was after getting huge mosquito bites around my body.
Oh by the way, My house still smells of burnt charcoal.
Day1
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My Dad used the phone from 7 pm to 11.30 pm. I get my internet at 7 pm and ends at 12 midnight. With his frequent calls, I couldnt even open a webpage thanks to DC.
Day 2
------
My Dad and my family goes to have dinner with aliens. Till 11 PM. Talking alien.
Day 3
------
Thanks to a brilliant Feng Shui Master, he claimed that we could kill the spiders inhabiting the top corners of my house by suffocating them with the smoke of charcoal. This was supposedly supposed to bring my family luck, and more hitss to the porn site my dad owns.
Sadly, I spent 2 hours setting up charcoal fires in the house ( BBQ style ), my eyes were crying out in the smoke, they will never be the same again. We closed all windows and doors and left the fire in the house for 2 hours.
On the brught side, my house didnt burn up. Oh wait, did I mention I would be spending the whole night vacuuming, mopping and sweeping the floor from charcoal soots and debris in the whole house.
And no, the spiders did not die. They just laughed their ass out at me cleaning the WHOLE FUCKING HOUSE thanks to my feng shui master.
My dad paid him rm 2000 to give tips about how he can get good luck in life and earn good money. To me, its also called daylight robbery.
Day 4 ( Yesterday )
----
Dinner alsted till 8.30, but then my dad went out without me ! YESH A FULL NIGHT OF PEACEFUL UNINTERRUPTED INTERNET AWAITS ME.
Ooops, I spoke to soon. At 9, my whole housing area had no electricity. Thanks Malaysia. It came back at 11.30 PM. That was after getting huge mosquito bites around my body.
Oh by the way, My house still smells of burnt charcoal.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Another step to insanity
Yay im finally breaking up :D
Life in Kedah has reach an all time low, increasesd fustration and a never ending desire to break as many kilometrico pen caps as possible.
As I ran out of kilometrico pen caps to break today, I decided I needed a new way to release my tension I have been living with for the pass few weeks :D.
These are the reasons why i fucking hate kedah and fucking hate my life :D? I hate it and Im smiling, Im quite sure Im gonna go insane soon XD, but thats a good thing I guess, then I wouldnt care about my life at all.
1. Every dinner, I have to bring chairs from the 2nd floor to the first floor dining tables to eat. Why ? Cause my dad decided to destroy 4 dining chairs downstairs in his fury and he is so fucking cheapskate to buy new chairs. Not to mention, I think he loves reminding me how good his relationship with my mum is, breaking chairs and stuff :D?
2. Almost every day my dad would fret on why i got no friends in Kedah. Usually, since my dad is always stressed of work and his troubled love life of trying to keep several mistresses and his wife happy, I decided to just grunt and not talk about that. Finally I told him off that I lived in Kuala Lumpur for 16 years, spent 1.5 years in Penang to study pre u, and ended up in Kedah. Oh yes, I dont go to school or anything in Kedah, how the fuck am i suppose to get friends here.
3. I do go to driving class. So I might ge t some friends here. Too bad they are all Malays and sadly, 100 % of Malay teens that i know spend half their life smoking. In class, they go to toilet to smoke 10 minutes. When eatin, they smoke throughout. While driving, they stop to smoke. Unless I suddenly decide to take smoking ciggies and go rempiting around Kedah, I am clearly not gonna shorten my lifespan in search of friends like them.
4. Today, I realised having a mother is good training to getting a really annoying girlfriend. Especially if she expects you to mop the whole house and bath with your handphone beside you. Every call you miss makes her angry. She comes home and says she receive a lot of stress from work ( teaching ) and her stupid womanizing husband and stupid son who doesnt bath with his handphone in his hand. Today I missed 2 of her calls. One was because i was bathing, another was because I was mopping the house. My phone was downstairs. She expected me to run down the stairs, break a few bones to answer her call.
5. My dad is too busy servicing his bitch and his wife as well as trying to earn illegal money by trrying to make a few pornos with his mistresses. If you ever see a fat old chinese man fucking a super thin flat chested lvl 1 chinese girl on gutteruncensored.com or megaporn, you know thats my dad =D. Hes too busy than fix me a splitter. Now everytime one of his girlfriends or porn directors calls the telephone line, my internet disconnects. Oh yea, my dad is a super popular pimp, expect calls every few minutes with hour long convos regarding their latest positions on screen.
6. Today or yesterday, I cant quite remember, neither do I care, my mum said Im irresposible and show no will of doing anything. I had to restrain myself from telling her to stop getting angry everytime me or my dad misses her calls. This often leads her to have some super black face, infuriates the playboy king ( my dad ) and causes some earthquake in my house.
7. Today I decided to count something interesting. 11 of the 12 doors in my rented house has kick marks ( meaning you can see a hole on one side of the door ) done by a Chuck Norris Wannabe aka my DAD.
8. Im starting to feel my dog has more life than I do.
9. My dad often loves to eat out and invite me and my mum for dinner with some friends ( other pornstars who wanna make illegal money ). It is a routine joke to talk about my inability to talk any form of Chinese. Thanks Dad for teaching me English.
10. And I often sit and watch them talking away in their chinese for hours. So far, the best was starting at 6 and ending at 11.30. I sat there for 5.5 hours hearing aliens language. My dog has more life than I do, Im sure.
11. My Dads sex life has gone so far he cant even shit in the shit bowl properly any more. Often ( like every morning ), I enter the toilet with shit on the floor, and some cake on the toilet slippers. After using chlorox to wash the floor, the toilet will continue to produce shit smell for the next 60 minutes.
12. My only happiness comes online. With the frequent disconnections due to the super popular dad of mine, my mum loves to come into my room, sit on my bed and talks nonsense about my dog, my dad and micheal jacksons death to me. Since I often try to ignore her mumblings while i seek happiness, my mum says i need to put more effort in talking to people.
13. Oh by the way, my mum hides my laptop from 12 midnight to about 7 in the evening incase I find my dad on one of the pornsites. Im 18 and I have curfew on my PC use even when Im on holiday.
14. I feel people on the site some shorty gave me ( fuck my life ), are actually luckier than me.
15. My mum threw my whole collection of CDs last week.
16. My dad used my laptop to watch porn yesterday, it got infected and turned into a boomer. I formatted it. My PC is empty now. I have been playing solitaire for the past 24 hours.
17. Oh yea, did i mention my mum accidentally threw my original Windows CD and the label where the serial number is on ? I had to go and buy a pirated Windows to get my laptop working, and I paid for it.
18. Very recently, My dad decided to gain weight to be a plus sized porn star ( he is 102 kg and increasing ). To avoid becoming Malaysias next walrus, my family is not gonna eat dinner from now on. I get fruits for dinner. Did I mention I eat breakfast and lunch alone ? I only cook like bread and fried rice everyday. Im gonna be malnutritioned soon. Dam.
Well, I got more to say, but Ill keep it for next time when I really get fustrated sad and angry. Haiz. Im starting to get emo :D. its good that I still havent started cutting my skin out, I really hope I dont descend to that level XD.
Stay tuned for more sadness and depression only from applebearcat.blogspot.com ..
Life in Kedah has reach an all time low, increasesd fustration and a never ending desire to break as many kilometrico pen caps as possible.
As I ran out of kilometrico pen caps to break today, I decided I needed a new way to release my tension I have been living with for the pass few weeks :D.
These are the reasons why i fucking hate kedah and fucking hate my life :D? I hate it and Im smiling, Im quite sure Im gonna go insane soon XD, but thats a good thing I guess, then I wouldnt care about my life at all.
1. Every dinner, I have to bring chairs from the 2nd floor to the first floor dining tables to eat. Why ? Cause my dad decided to destroy 4 dining chairs downstairs in his fury and he is so fucking cheapskate to buy new chairs. Not to mention, I think he loves reminding me how good his relationship with my mum is, breaking chairs and stuff :D?
2. Almost every day my dad would fret on why i got no friends in Kedah. Usually, since my dad is always stressed of work and his troubled love life of trying to keep several mistresses and his wife happy, I decided to just grunt and not talk about that. Finally I told him off that I lived in Kuala Lumpur for 16 years, spent 1.5 years in Penang to study pre u, and ended up in Kedah. Oh yes, I dont go to school or anything in Kedah, how the fuck am i suppose to get friends here.
3. I do go to driving class. So I might ge t some friends here. Too bad they are all Malays and sadly, 100 % of Malay teens that i know spend half their life smoking. In class, they go to toilet to smoke 10 minutes. When eatin, they smoke throughout. While driving, they stop to smoke. Unless I suddenly decide to take smoking ciggies and go rempiting around Kedah, I am clearly not gonna shorten my lifespan in search of friends like them.
4. Today, I realised having a mother is good training to getting a really annoying girlfriend. Especially if she expects you to mop the whole house and bath with your handphone beside you. Every call you miss makes her angry. She comes home and says she receive a lot of stress from work ( teaching ) and her stupid womanizing husband and stupid son who doesnt bath with his handphone in his hand. Today I missed 2 of her calls. One was because i was bathing, another was because I was mopping the house. My phone was downstairs. She expected me to run down the stairs, break a few bones to answer her call.
5. My dad is too busy servicing his bitch and his wife as well as trying to earn illegal money by trrying to make a few pornos with his mistresses. If you ever see a fat old chinese man fucking a super thin flat chested lvl 1 chinese girl on gutteruncensored.com or megaporn, you know thats my dad =D. Hes too busy than fix me a splitter. Now everytime one of his girlfriends or porn directors calls the telephone line, my internet disconnects. Oh yea, my dad is a super popular pimp, expect calls every few minutes with hour long convos regarding their latest positions on screen.
6. Today or yesterday, I cant quite remember, neither do I care, my mum said Im irresposible and show no will of doing anything. I had to restrain myself from telling her to stop getting angry everytime me or my dad misses her calls. This often leads her to have some super black face, infuriates the playboy king ( my dad ) and causes some earthquake in my house.
7. Today I decided to count something interesting. 11 of the 12 doors in my rented house has kick marks ( meaning you can see a hole on one side of the door ) done by a Chuck Norris Wannabe aka my DAD.
8. Im starting to feel my dog has more life than I do.
9. My dad often loves to eat out and invite me and my mum for dinner with some friends ( other pornstars who wanna make illegal money ). It is a routine joke to talk about my inability to talk any form of Chinese. Thanks Dad for teaching me English.
10. And I often sit and watch them talking away in their chinese for hours. So far, the best was starting at 6 and ending at 11.30. I sat there for 5.5 hours hearing aliens language. My dog has more life than I do, Im sure.
11. My Dads sex life has gone so far he cant even shit in the shit bowl properly any more. Often ( like every morning ), I enter the toilet with shit on the floor, and some cake on the toilet slippers. After using chlorox to wash the floor, the toilet will continue to produce shit smell for the next 60 minutes.
12. My only happiness comes online. With the frequent disconnections due to the super popular dad of mine, my mum loves to come into my room, sit on my bed and talks nonsense about my dog, my dad and micheal jacksons death to me. Since I often try to ignore her mumblings while i seek happiness, my mum says i need to put more effort in talking to people.
13. Oh by the way, my mum hides my laptop from 12 midnight to about 7 in the evening incase I find my dad on one of the pornsites. Im 18 and I have curfew on my PC use even when Im on holiday.
14. I feel people on the site some shorty gave me ( fuck my life ), are actually luckier than me.
15. My mum threw my whole collection of CDs last week.
16. My dad used my laptop to watch porn yesterday, it got infected and turned into a boomer. I formatted it. My PC is empty now. I have been playing solitaire for the past 24 hours.
17. Oh yea, did i mention my mum accidentally threw my original Windows CD and the label where the serial number is on ? I had to go and buy a pirated Windows to get my laptop working, and I paid for it.
18. Very recently, My dad decided to gain weight to be a plus sized porn star ( he is 102 kg and increasing ). To avoid becoming Malaysias next walrus, my family is not gonna eat dinner from now on. I get fruits for dinner. Did I mention I eat breakfast and lunch alone ? I only cook like bread and fried rice everyday. Im gonna be malnutritioned soon. Dam.
Well, I got more to say, but Ill keep it for next time when I really get fustrated sad and angry. Haiz. Im starting to get emo :D. its good that I still havent started cutting my skin out, I really hope I dont descend to that level XD.
Stay tuned for more sadness and depression only from applebearcat.blogspot.com ..
Monday, April 20, 2009
What is love ?
Really super emo post here. Nothing to do with people - people love. Its about parent - child love ^^"
My whole biography will be here. Id like everyone to know me and my life so far.
Name Is ApplebearCat, born 12th september 1991, male from Kepong.
This post is all about me n my parents only !!
My dad looks like a huge gigantic walrus with the power of an elephant.
When I was small, my parents regularly fight. When they fight, usually my walrus dad will break stuff like chairs and stuff like ornaments vases and things like that. That time I was really small, I dont really knew what was happening, so I usually just cried with my bigger sister ^^.
Anyway, I suppose its kinda normal to have violent dads these days, so I guess I survived my early childhood normally. I had great friends and enjoyed life =D.
During secondary school, things started to fall apart. My mum found my dad having an affair with a fucking bitch at work. So they fought and fought everyday and more and more stuff was broken. My mum developed an obsession to dig out stuff and accuse my dad ALMOST daily. So everynight, chairs are broken, Broken chairs are broken further, and further brokened chairs are brokened further. But I am already used to that. So it didn't really matter to me.
Soon, my lucky sister escaped the walrus and his queen and his 2nd bitch. She went to Australia. Now my sister was a good talker, strong, determined ( similar to my dad ), so when they fought, my sister usually knew how to stop them and scold the walrus. Sadly, being the useless child ( me ), practically I just cried till it ends.
The funniest thing is, I know my mum reads a book to save a dieing marriage. the first thing they said was DO NOT LET UR CHILD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FIGHT AND DONT USE THEM TO DEFEND URSELF. Sadly, my mum is partially blind, and ALWAYS calls me to help her out. Haizz.. I am OK when i dont really see the fight, but when u are in the middle of it, u really feel sad.. and cry !
So ok broken chairs only mah ! Nothing to worry,no lasting effect on the teenage me. Oh yeah, but a while later, my dad gets more and more violent ^^v ". He started using the cangkul ( a hoe u use to chop grass too make the ground softer ). He uses it and smashes it on the floor like he is King walrus of the world ! Smash wall etc. Now this is really scary, cos I AM SCARED I WILL DIE OR MY MUM WILL DIE. To solve this, we always call my dads side family to save us. It usually works.
But the most funniest thing is, my parents always say they love me, and I know they do. But there are just some events that really make me, feel lonely, unwanted, lost, and suicidal. This breaking stuff and hoeing around, I DONT FUCKING CARE BUT..
These events next are what really tears me apart..
1. My dads attempt at mini suicide number 1. Buy rat poison and keep in car. Always say he want commit suicide cos my mum keep digging stuff about him and his bitch at work and he gets mad.
2. My mums attempt to suicide. She went to toilet. Then I went on the bed and saw her handphone send a message to her brother ( my uncle ), asking my uncle to take care of me and my sister coz she wanted suicide. Luckily i read the message, told my dad and my dad burst into the toilet and say KING WALRUS IS HERE, DONT SUICIDE. So anyway, that stopped my mum from suiciding. I saved someones life !!! ^^V !! Haha, u know i just realised i saved my mums life when i wrote this, i never thought of it before lol.
3. Possibly the most sadest case of them all. My dad at Kuantan in a hotel. Fight with my mum on phone ( because of bitch as usual ). Finnaly my dad wanted to really suicide there, apparently got rope on fan ( but he is a fat walrus, if he did try to hang, the fan sure break and he wont die lol ). ANYWAY FOR SOME FUCKED UP REASON HE ASK TO TALK TO ME LAST BEFORE HE SUICIDE. LOL. And of course i took the phone and.. haiz.. i dunno how to describe the feeling, but to hear ur dad crying and speaking his last words too me asking me too be good and all.. is not something someone like me too handle. I mean I was like 15 then ? WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO HEAR THAT SHIT !
YOU KNOW ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT MAKES ME DREAM EVERY FEW NIGHTS MY PARENTS DIE. KILL EACH OTHER. KILL ME. KILL EVERYONE. WHAT THE FUCK MAN ? ITS SO FUCKING UNFAIR. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE SHIT LIKE THIS ? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !
I think if i murder someone and go to hell, ill fit in there quite good. I already experienced a mini hell in Kepong. Oh ya, and you know how my parents love to say school days are the best. LOL. really funny lar they all haha..
Anyway originating from Kepong, I somehow study in Penang now . Cos my parents shifted to kedah to work. U KNOW WHY ? COZ my mum report to everyone my dad got affair so they shifted him to kedah to stop affair. LOLZ. So, me again, having to leave the few friends of my sad little life and start new at Penang.
Oh ya, Im not a very feel sad for urself, pathetic bastard, feel sorry for himself only bastard. I manage to score 9 A1 1 A2 in SPM u know ! PRONESS. haha. Now comes my great downfall =].
College life was enjoyable n i enjoyed it too much. Missed some classes and got nice screwing from parents 2 weeks ago. So ok, I promised them too be a good boy etc .. yeah, and Ive been fucking good for 2 weeks now, study all day, and all that but today.. tada.. the reason y i so emo.
My mum got my report from MARCH and saw me miss classes and decided to tell my DAD. MARCH IS MUCH FURTHER BEHIND THAN 2 WEEKS U FAILURE OF MATHS MOTHER.
So jz now I got another screwing from my dad saying how he trusted me blablabla that now he dun trust me and all. LOL ? I dont even want to talk to them and explain how their fucking maths failed, and how retarded they are.
AND HOW THEY EXPECT LIFE TO BE SO EASY WHEN THEY FUCKED UP MY LIFE SO MUCH. ISNT IT FAIR THAT I INFLICT SOME DAMAGE TO THEM ?
THEY LOVE ME SO MUCH they say..
But they wanted to suicided and gtfo my life.
They let me listen to their pleas when they wanted to suicide.
My mum talks to me about divorcing my dad every day like shes talking about the weather.
They dont trust me ANYMORE, because i skipped classes before i promised them never to do it again.
Oh ya, my dad mentioned that i can get him a heart attack since i break his trust. When it type this, he might had already gotten one. LOL ? Nah, I know it wont happen, walruses dont die young, they live long enuf to torture their children to insanity, and expect great service from them.
PRO =]
Pls dont call me, my few friends that I have left, I have succesfully smashed my phone after losing my walrus's trust. The screen is all shattered and if i answer phone calls, it might blow up my head and send me straight to hell.
Oh well, TONIGHT IS NOT A NIGHT I WILL EVEN STUDY, IM GONNA FUCKING PLAY TILL MORNING, IF IM GONnA MISS MY EXAM WHO THE FUCK CARES ? SINCE THEY WANTED TO SUICIDE SO MUCH, I CAN HELP THEM =D
LOL =D
My mum jz called me ask if i had dinner. My phone did NOT explode. Ask so sweetly, i guessed she realised her date error. Haiz too bad, walrus is still alive.
End of story
Since my blog is dead, I wonder who will first read it hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
My whole biography will be here. Id like everyone to know me and my life so far.
Name Is ApplebearCat, born 12th september 1991, male from Kepong.
This post is all about me n my parents only !!
My dad looks like a huge gigantic walrus with the power of an elephant.
When I was small, my parents regularly fight. When they fight, usually my walrus dad will break stuff like chairs and stuff like ornaments vases and things like that. That time I was really small, I dont really knew what was happening, so I usually just cried with my bigger sister ^^.
Anyway, I suppose its kinda normal to have violent dads these days, so I guess I survived my early childhood normally. I had great friends and enjoyed life =D.
During secondary school, things started to fall apart. My mum found my dad having an affair with a fucking bitch at work. So they fought and fought everyday and more and more stuff was broken. My mum developed an obsession to dig out stuff and accuse my dad ALMOST daily. So everynight, chairs are broken, Broken chairs are broken further, and further brokened chairs are brokened further. But I am already used to that. So it didn't really matter to me.
Soon, my lucky sister escaped the walrus and his queen and his 2nd bitch. She went to Australia. Now my sister was a good talker, strong, determined ( similar to my dad ), so when they fought, my sister usually knew how to stop them and scold the walrus. Sadly, being the useless child ( me ), practically I just cried till it ends.
The funniest thing is, I know my mum reads a book to save a dieing marriage. the first thing they said was DO NOT LET UR CHILD IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FIGHT AND DONT USE THEM TO DEFEND URSELF. Sadly, my mum is partially blind, and ALWAYS calls me to help her out. Haizz.. I am OK when i dont really see the fight, but when u are in the middle of it, u really feel sad.. and cry !
So ok broken chairs only mah ! Nothing to worry,no lasting effect on the teenage me. Oh yeah, but a while later, my dad gets more and more violent ^^v ". He started using the cangkul ( a hoe u use to chop grass too make the ground softer ). He uses it and smashes it on the floor like he is King walrus of the world ! Smash wall etc. Now this is really scary, cos I AM SCARED I WILL DIE OR MY MUM WILL DIE. To solve this, we always call my dads side family to save us. It usually works.
But the most funniest thing is, my parents always say they love me, and I know they do. But there are just some events that really make me, feel lonely, unwanted, lost, and suicidal. This breaking stuff and hoeing around, I DONT FUCKING CARE BUT..
These events next are what really tears me apart..
1. My dads attempt at mini suicide number 1. Buy rat poison and keep in car. Always say he want commit suicide cos my mum keep digging stuff about him and his bitch at work and he gets mad.
2. My mums attempt to suicide. She went to toilet. Then I went on the bed and saw her handphone send a message to her brother ( my uncle ), asking my uncle to take care of me and my sister coz she wanted suicide. Luckily i read the message, told my dad and my dad burst into the toilet and say KING WALRUS IS HERE, DONT SUICIDE. So anyway, that stopped my mum from suiciding. I saved someones life !!! ^^V !! Haha, u know i just realised i saved my mums life when i wrote this, i never thought of it before lol.
3. Possibly the most sadest case of them all. My dad at Kuantan in a hotel. Fight with my mum on phone ( because of bitch as usual ). Finnaly my dad wanted to really suicide there, apparently got rope on fan ( but he is a fat walrus, if he did try to hang, the fan sure break and he wont die lol ). ANYWAY FOR SOME FUCKED UP REASON HE ASK TO TALK TO ME LAST BEFORE HE SUICIDE. LOL. And of course i took the phone and.. haiz.. i dunno how to describe the feeling, but to hear ur dad crying and speaking his last words too me asking me too be good and all.. is not something someone like me too handle. I mean I was like 15 then ? WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO HEAR THAT SHIT !
YOU KNOW ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT MAKES ME DREAM EVERY FEW NIGHTS MY PARENTS DIE. KILL EACH OTHER. KILL ME. KILL EVERYONE. WHAT THE FUCK MAN ? ITS SO FUCKING UNFAIR. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE SHIT LIKE THIS ? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !
I think if i murder someone and go to hell, ill fit in there quite good. I already experienced a mini hell in Kepong. Oh ya, and you know how my parents love to say school days are the best. LOL. really funny lar they all haha..
Anyway originating from Kepong, I somehow study in Penang now . Cos my parents shifted to kedah to work. U KNOW WHY ? COZ my mum report to everyone my dad got affair so they shifted him to kedah to stop affair. LOLZ. So, me again, having to leave the few friends of my sad little life and start new at Penang.
Oh ya, Im not a very feel sad for urself, pathetic bastard, feel sorry for himself only bastard. I manage to score 9 A1 1 A2 in SPM u know ! PRONESS. haha. Now comes my great downfall =].
College life was enjoyable n i enjoyed it too much. Missed some classes and got nice screwing from parents 2 weeks ago. So ok, I promised them too be a good boy etc .. yeah, and Ive been fucking good for 2 weeks now, study all day, and all that but today.. tada.. the reason y i so emo.
My mum got my report from MARCH and saw me miss classes and decided to tell my DAD. MARCH IS MUCH FURTHER BEHIND THAN 2 WEEKS U FAILURE OF MATHS MOTHER.
So jz now I got another screwing from my dad saying how he trusted me blablabla that now he dun trust me and all. LOL ? I dont even want to talk to them and explain how their fucking maths failed, and how retarded they are.
AND HOW THEY EXPECT LIFE TO BE SO EASY WHEN THEY FUCKED UP MY LIFE SO MUCH. ISNT IT FAIR THAT I INFLICT SOME DAMAGE TO THEM ?
THEY LOVE ME SO MUCH they say..
But they wanted to suicided and gtfo my life.
They let me listen to their pleas when they wanted to suicide.
My mum talks to me about divorcing my dad every day like shes talking about the weather.
They dont trust me ANYMORE, because i skipped classes before i promised them never to do it again.
Oh ya, my dad mentioned that i can get him a heart attack since i break his trust. When it type this, he might had already gotten one. LOL ? Nah, I know it wont happen, walruses dont die young, they live long enuf to torture their children to insanity, and expect great service from them.
PRO =]
Pls dont call me, my few friends that I have left, I have succesfully smashed my phone after losing my walrus's trust. The screen is all shattered and if i answer phone calls, it might blow up my head and send me straight to hell.
Oh well, TONIGHT IS NOT A NIGHT I WILL EVEN STUDY, IM GONNA FUCKING PLAY TILL MORNING, IF IM GONnA MISS MY EXAM WHO THE FUCK CARES ? SINCE THEY WANTED TO SUICIDE SO MUCH, I CAN HELP THEM =D
LOL =D
My mum jz called me ask if i had dinner. My phone did NOT explode. Ask so sweetly, i guessed she realised her date error. Haiz too bad, walrus is still alive.
End of story
Since my blog is dead, I wonder who will first read it hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Monday, March 9, 2009
Malaysia so far
This is my review so far from my 17 years and 6 months living in Malaysia.
Likes
1.
Dislikes
1. Malaysia
2. Weather is fucking hot thanks to global warming
3. Too many noob teachers at school and college unable to tell the difference between teaching and recurring monologs ( monolog is humans talking to themself, also can be applied to animals )
4. We released a terrorist involved in 9/11 after 5 years in jail due to good behaviour
5. A Mongolian girl was bombed in Malaysia but no one was charged
6. Corruption
7. Got fat vice president who gonna be president ( najib )
8. We can build flyovers that make 40 cracks in a month
9. State goverments can change after elections
10. Retards who work less, think less, and fuck less cos they cant eat from morning to night
11. Blocking youporn.com ( number 1 porn site in Malaysia ) but Dr Chua can make sex tape
12. The opposition leader likes young virgin boys asses
13. We sent someone in space to the do an epic experiment, which has changed the world so much, I don't even know what the experiment is
14. Did you know Proton was made because of the SEA free trade ? ( aka cars and items can be exported to other ASEAN countries without tax ). Proton was made to monopolise the car industry in South East Asia. Too bad, our leaders and engineers are too dumb, we havent even produce a proper working car on our own yet. In addition, we failed to monopolise the car country, despite the fact we have Oil and Thailand doesnt. OMFG. Noobs
15. Gay JPA scholarship. A married couple who are in their 50s who worked their whole life in the government, spawned 2 children who both achieved straight A's ( one all A1, the other noober one, which is me, got 1 A 2 ), both cant achieve scholarship.
16. Streamyx is as fast as Minardi F1. Just one difference, Streamyx has not died yet.
17. The shape of our country is like a retarded banana, and Singapore is the splunk.
18. Narjib so fat, his waist size is larger than his IQ!
19. Narjib once said to kill the Chinses and bath his keris with the blood of the chinese
20. Today, toll rises . Tonight, the prime minister delays it.
To be continued, if streamyx stops me from posting more =)
Likes
1.
Dislikes
1. Malaysia
2. Weather is fucking hot thanks to global warming
3. Too many noob teachers at school and college unable to tell the difference between teaching and recurring monologs ( monolog is humans talking to themself, also can be applied to animals )
4. We released a terrorist involved in 9/11 after 5 years in jail due to good behaviour
5. A Mongolian girl was bombed in Malaysia but no one was charged
6. Corruption
7. Got fat vice president who gonna be president ( najib )
8. We can build flyovers that make 40 cracks in a month
9. State goverments can change after elections
10. Retards who work less, think less, and fuck less cos they cant eat from morning to night
11. Blocking youporn.com ( number 1 porn site in Malaysia ) but Dr Chua can make sex tape
12. The opposition leader likes young virgin boys asses
13. We sent someone in space to the do an epic experiment, which has changed the world so much, I don't even know what the experiment is
14. Did you know Proton was made because of the SEA free trade ? ( aka cars and items can be exported to other ASEAN countries without tax ). Proton was made to monopolise the car industry in South East Asia. Too bad, our leaders and engineers are too dumb, we havent even produce a proper working car on our own yet. In addition, we failed to monopolise the car country, despite the fact we have Oil and Thailand doesnt. OMFG. Noobs
15. Gay JPA scholarship. A married couple who are in their 50s who worked their whole life in the government, spawned 2 children who both achieved straight A's ( one all A1, the other noober one, which is me, got 1 A 2 ), both cant achieve scholarship.
16. Streamyx is as fast as Minardi F1. Just one difference, Streamyx has not died yet.
17. The shape of our country is like a retarded banana, and Singapore is the splunk.
18. Narjib so fat, his waist size is larger than his IQ!
19. Narjib once said to kill the Chinses and bath his keris with the blood of the chinese
20. Today, toll rises . Tonight, the prime minister delays it.
To be continued, if streamyx stops me from posting more =)
Monday, February 16, 2009
Get to know yourself better
I saw this thingy at Mr Soony blog that was a test of your character, im not sure its true, cos i had no time to read what the results. But I just decided to take it for amusement =].
Question 1 : Imagine that you are walking along a path. What do you see around you?
In truth, I would probably say im seeing the path and checking whether the half mad penang drivers are gonna finish me witha hit and run. That happened to someone i knew and according there was something to gruesome that I really wanna tell but I just dont wanna.
Anyway, they did not put any looking left and right for cars ( which I have been trained from young ), they asked me if I would see the corn field, forest or sky. Oh well, I choose the sky, because the sky is a sky.
Question2 : What do you see near your feet?
They asked me to answer, a bottle, a ring or a mirror.
After thinking hard, id like the ring, I could sell it for a higher price ^^
Question 3 : Will you pick it up ?
Obviously yes. Only a blind man would walk pass a ring and not pick it up from the ground.
Question 4 : You walk along and find water. In what form is the water?
Options : Lake, waterfall, river
This time i choose the waterfall. Because a waterfall is a waterfall.
Question 5 : You see a key in the water and you pick it up. What does it look like?
Options : normal house key, antique house key, small silver locker key
WOW. Im starting to think this quiz makers have really too much time to do. Even redtube failed to amuse them. I rememebered my C for Chemistry, so i chose C, the silver ^^.
Question 6 : ext you stumble across a house. What type of house is it?
Options : Huge hollywood Mansion, old castle, hut with flowers
In my own amazement, I would choose the hut. Imagine trying to clean those other 2 err, accomodations. You invite me one day can ler, whole life cannot ^^.
Question7 : What do you do next?
Brilliant. U can walk away. But they are so smart, after giving nonsensical questions, they gave u a house to choose from, and unless you are an indecisive bastard, you would NEVER walk away from your choice.
Answer : walk straight in ^^. Maybe got old lady doing the flowers, with young hot chick as her daughter =D.
Question 8 : Suddenly, something jumps out at you. What is it?
Options : bear, spider, wizard
I choose bear. Dont ask me why, its a personal reason !!!!!!!!!
Question 9 : Because you are so scared you run until you see a wall blocking the path in front of you. There is a door, but it's locked, so you look through the key hole. What do you see?
I answered A beautiful house with a vast garden. Cos atm, my house is quite a nice house, but the weeds are growing hugely. It changes everytime we low the mawn. Recently, morning glory invaded it and it looks beautiful :D
RESULTS INSTANT WOW. I expected them to ask me to send my email and get viagra spam from then on, but this is it =D
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
My opinion : LOL, I wish people would be attracted to me =(
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
My opinion : I epicly fail at that ^^;
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Owh, thats gotta be the joke of the year...
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
THIS FTW ! TRUE 100 %. I hate to study, and if i ever become prime minister of Malaysia I will demolish all schools !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! VOTE FOR ME !
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
No job
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
Nothing except something called noob teacher.....
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
lol. I survived Penang. INDEPENDENCE !
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Eh, isn't jumping 7th floor of KDU college the best n honest good advice, it gets rid of your problems and you from me ^^.
The end of the extremely rare blogspost . Treasure it with your heart.
Dun jump KDU College 7th floor yet . Will me your internet first .
Question 1 : Imagine that you are walking along a path. What do you see around you?
In truth, I would probably say im seeing the path and checking whether the half mad penang drivers are gonna finish me witha hit and run. That happened to someone i knew and according there was something to gruesome that I really wanna tell but I just dont wanna.
Anyway, they did not put any looking left and right for cars ( which I have been trained from young ), they asked me if I would see the corn field, forest or sky. Oh well, I choose the sky, because the sky is a sky.
Question2 : What do you see near your feet?
They asked me to answer, a bottle, a ring or a mirror.
After thinking hard, id like the ring, I could sell it for a higher price ^^
Question 3 : Will you pick it up ?
Obviously yes. Only a blind man would walk pass a ring and not pick it up from the ground.
Question 4 : You walk along and find water. In what form is the water?
Options : Lake, waterfall, river
This time i choose the waterfall. Because a waterfall is a waterfall.
Question 5 : You see a key in the water and you pick it up. What does it look like?
Options : normal house key, antique house key, small silver locker key
WOW. Im starting to think this quiz makers have really too much time to do. Even redtube failed to amuse them. I rememebered my C for Chemistry, so i chose C, the silver ^^.
Question 6 : ext you stumble across a house. What type of house is it?
Options : Huge hollywood Mansion, old castle, hut with flowers
In my own amazement, I would choose the hut. Imagine trying to clean those other 2 err, accomodations. You invite me one day can ler, whole life cannot ^^.
Question7 : What do you do next?
Brilliant. U can walk away. But they are so smart, after giving nonsensical questions, they gave u a house to choose from, and unless you are an indecisive bastard, you would NEVER walk away from your choice.
Answer : walk straight in ^^. Maybe got old lady doing the flowers, with young hot chick as her daughter =D.
Question 8 : Suddenly, something jumps out at you. What is it?
Options : bear, spider, wizard
I choose bear. Dont ask me why, its a personal reason !!!!!!!!!
Question 9 : Because you are so scared you run until you see a wall blocking the path in front of you. There is a door, but it's locked, so you look through the key hole. What do you see?
I answered A beautiful house with a vast garden. Cos atm, my house is quite a nice house, but the weeds are growing hugely. It changes everytime we low the mawn. Recently, morning glory invaded it and it looks beautiful :D
RESULTS INSTANT WOW. I expected them to ask me to send my email and get viagra spam from then on, but this is it =D
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
My opinion : LOL, I wish people would be attracted to me =(
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
My opinion : I epicly fail at that ^^;
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Owh, thats gotta be the joke of the year...
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
THIS FTW ! TRUE 100 %. I hate to study, and if i ever become prime minister of Malaysia I will demolish all schools !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! VOTE FOR ME !
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
No job
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
Nothing except something called noob teacher.....
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
lol. I survived Penang. INDEPENDENCE !
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Eh, isn't jumping 7th floor of KDU college the best n honest good advice, it gets rid of your problems and you from me ^^.
The end of the extremely rare blogspost . Treasure it with your heart.
Dun jump KDU College 7th floor yet . Will me your internet first .
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